Many ages of Me

Damn I was so cute and became so pretty!

Oh to be young again, age wise of course because maturity wise, pretty sure I am still there!

Ready for the next Phase of my Life to begin! This is a serious post.

At some point a person has to decide they have had enough alone time.

I love my family, friends, kids, job, cats and at most times, my life but I have had enough of being a single parent, Mom and woman.

I am in a place in my life where I wonder if in my past lives if I was an adulterer or adulteress, my relationships either end due to lack of emotional commitment from him or although I give my trust, heart, life I get cheated on and it is not for a lack of, well you know what I mean. :)

I would like to find a man who is honest, has a purpose in his life, a JOB, teeth *you have no idea*, and knows what it is he wants out of this life we live even if he isn't 'there' yet.

I wonder if there is anyone out there for me sometimes, I have thought that I had found 'THE' one for me, however we were too young but are good friends after many years apart.

Then I met and married another I thought was my life partner, after we had our children he became distant and just not there for any of us.

Then I met Tom who 'said' all the 'right' things to me and I fell head over heals. Although others saw and some even told me he was a big cheater and lair, I just didn't see it as I was not ready to be 'alone' as a woman.

Then after a few years I decided I was ready to move on and I met Fred, we started as friends and ended falling deeply in love. We blended our families together and the kids even started calling each other brothers, then after a couple of years of what seemed like a blissful relationship, he cheated on me and left me for her.

That broke my heart in so many pieces it has taken me years to heal.

Thanks to my family, friends and my belief that things happen for a reason, that we create a lot of the drama in our lives and we follow patterns from past lives I have said ENOUGH! I deserve to be happy, I deserve to feel safe and I DESERVE to love and feel love again.

I would LOVE to have a 'LOVE' like my Parents, my sister, my grandparents and like others who deeply love each other and are surely each other's PARTNER!

So, if you know anyone you think deserves to have me in their life, I will gladly start very slow with email and phone calls LOL cousins, COME ON you must know someone LOL

I pray that God and Goddess bless me with someone to be my life partner who will be good to my kids and grandson, will be able to interact with my friends and family and be supportive and loving to me and mine.

OK that is all, I just needed to see it in writing and put it out there for my soul to find who I am suppose to live the rest of my life with.

Bright Blessings to all who read this and think, OMG she has lost her ever loving mind!

Sherry (Autumn Turtle)

Friday the 13th

This has to be a special one, as it is the 3rd for 2009!

Have a Great One and stay Safe!!

My sister Sandy's Tribute to our Grandfather

Papa’s legacy

My grandfather (Frank Senicar) was an amazing man. He was the patriarch of our family
I can’t speak to what life was like to be Frank’s child but I can speak to life as Frank’s grandchild and great grandchildren and great great grandchildren.

Family was the most important thing to him. He was always smiling, he was content with life. He accepted everyone for who they were, expectations were never beyond what each individual could attain. I can’t remember ever hearing him raise his voice at me,

My family had the luxury of growing up in the same town as our grandparents. This made for a different experience I believe. We would stop by and Papa would get home from work at the Cooperage, dressed in his work clothes, have a beer sit on the patio in the back. You were always greeted with a big hug and expected to sit on his lap and let him know what was new …did you have a boyfriend to which our response was usually Papa! After he retired he would pick us up in strawberry season and we would go strawberry picking together, an adventure that now I cherish but at the time wow did I wish he had better things to do because I hated strawberry picking. Through grades 6-8 my sisters’ and I would come for lunch at Nanny and Papa’s much to their delight, we would have cheese dreams, beet soup, waffles and ice cream & home made doughnuts. Often Papa was not there these days as he was driving for the cancer society, this got him out of the house and he was doing something to help others. We can only imagine the peace and tranquility he experienced each of these days on his trips to Hamilton. For those who knew my grandmother you can appreciate that Papa was the seen not heard person in the relationship and boy could she talk!!! Obviously this was the dominant trait to be passed on as there are only a few quiet soles within this family. He adored Nanny beyond what most relationships these days could even hope to attain. their love was special.

I was never embarrassed of my grandparents, I loved when they would stop by when I was working at Canadian Tire through high school and college they just wanted to know that I was well and they were so proud of me for pursuing my dream of being a nurse. For a couple that worked hard their entire lives all they wanted for their grandchildren was for us to live a good life and be happy.

Now for the legacy that Papa has left through the eyes of his great grandchildren:

· The man never had a job… he has been retired since I was 10yr old. They cannot understand his work experience in the tobacco fields or years in the Cooperage although for anyone that looked at his fingers ouch that might give them a clue.
· Wow what a memory… he knew every member of our family and what was important to them …somedays I can’t remember the names of my own children.
· Eat what you like and love….. years of table cream in his coffee, Nanny’s baking. We have grown up watching our fat intake and caloric intake…. maybe it is us that are doing it wrong.
· Driving into his mid 90’s
· Living in his own home until his stroke

We can only hope that Papa’s resiliency, compassion, strength and love are passed onto our children, because out of his 4 children,11 grandchildren, 25 great grandchildren and 2 great great grandchildren probability tells us that many of us will not come close to attaining this legacy.

Family

If this weekend taught me anything, family is very important to me, I have no problem sitting off to the side watching them interact it makes me happy just to be in the same area as they are. I use to think my oldest was odd for that behavior as a child, but here I am 44 almost 45 and that is how I have to enjoy crowds of people encluding my family the same way.

My sister Sandy, cousins Michelle, David and Kris read such wonderful and fitting tributes to my Poppa and Nanny. I will ask Sandy's permission on whether I can post her reading on here it was just so wonderful!

Taking a tip from the domestic witch

I have decided since I am moving and want to change my habits, I have joined FlyLady! I am going to start tomorrow with her baby steps program! It has taken a while to let my house get like this and it is over welming at the thought of cleaning it while packing as well, so she can help me one-step-at-a-time!

Well the funeral is Saturday, November 7th, 2009 at 2:00pm to divert my attention, I have been stitching.

The first is a freebie from Primitive Betty http://primitivebettys.blogspot.com/ followed by a freebie by the Sampler Girl http://atthehoneysuckletree.blogspot.com/

The last is a block I stitched for a dear family member, but after stitching it I cried as it also reminded me of my Poppa.

Thank you Everyone!

It is so wonderful to have all these comments on my posting of my Poppa's passing. He was a really sweet man and it means so much to me to read all these comments!
Turning a new chapter in my life, December 10th I am moving out of the little house I have rented for over 3 years. The strangest thing is I think I actually dreamt about this move, having a lot of memories of doing before. So I know it is the right move for us. We are moving to the house next door LOL it is on the 2nd floor, the first floor is occupied by one of my best friends and the top floor a really nice young man. Joe will have his own room and we will have central air, a dishwasher and a fenced back yard OH and a rare thing in our city a DRIVEWAY for my car!! The landlord is super awesome and I think this is going to be a great thing in my life. Now to start cleaning and packing after the funeral!!

My Poppa

97 years young, my Poppa, Frank Senicar passed away this morning Tuesday November 3rd, 2009.

He was the proud parent of Larry, Carol, Dona and Brian, very proud Poppa of Greg, Jeff, Sherry, Andy, Sandy, David, Susan, Michelle, Heather, Kelly and Kris.

Not to mention all of the Great Grand children and 2 Great Great Grand children.

He was married to Doris for many MANY years until her passing and now they are together again, and I am sure she is holding him close in her arms.

You were a wonderful man, loving caring and always accepting.

All I can say is I love you I miss you and thank you for the most wonderful father and all the love you always gave to us all.

Please light a candle, say a prayer, whatever your faith does in these times,

On October 31st, my Poppa a very spry 97yr old man had a very severe stroke. According to the doctors and specialists he isn't expected to make it past a week.

He has always been a quiet man, had very few illnesses and never lost his spark for life.

I know my Nanny will be thrilled to have him back with her, however I feel blessed to have spent his 97th birthday with him as well as seeing the joy on his face seeing his oldest great-granddaughter get married.

He got to see almost all his grandchildren marry (at least once), gotten to see many great grandchildren and even got to meet 2 great-great grandchildren.

In a way you could say he has lived a blessed life, but he never forgot the hard work it was either.

Poppa, if you are going to pass over to the other side, I hope it is a safe and quick trip for you, I don't want to see you in pain but selfishly I don't want to loose my last grandparent either.

Get well soon!

We all love you so much!!