I have a new tattoo! Used the extra money from helping a friend out by taking her in until she found a place to move to and I am so happy I could help her and thrilled to have my 2nd tattoo. It can be well hidden as it is over my heart and shows my love of sea turtles, has my kids names on it and it shows even though I don't get to see or talk to my friend Eva much, I think about her daily!
Today I did something that I am going to stick to, I listened to the Eva that lives in my head LOL yeah you know you do!!! Anyway, I finally built my bridge and happily crossed it and I am offically over Fred. I made a promise to him and to myself to let it go and just keep it on a friendship level, I will not try to make him come see me, or be the seducer that I tend to be and I will just be his friend and that does not change the fact I love his children dearly, it just means I am allowing him to move on with his life with his choice of who he wants in it. I am not saying this was an easy task to preform, and I am sure I will need to remind myself about it now and then, but it means I now am ready to move into a new phase of my life where I am taking responsibility for my actions and how they effect others in their lives. Wow could this mean I am finally growing up? NAHHHHH lol I am still the 42yr old woman who loves to think she is younger only because I feel younger, happier and more in control than I have in a very long time.
OH NEWS!!! I got the Research Specialist position at work, although there is no pay increase, it is a lateral move, it means I get to do the work I enjoy the most and the biggest perk is I will be working Tuesdays - Saturdays 7:30am to 4:00pm daily and who knows, maybe I can find that life or adventure I am seeking!
Looks like my roomie is moving out this weekend, so I am going to TOTALLY redo my apartment, clean it top to bottom, get some sweet grass braids and smudge all the negative energies from it and become the loving wiccan woman I know I am. I know it is going to free me to be more spiritual and I will finally get my alter set up and I can focus on my spirituality and I want to take a yoga class to help me with my meditation and start to free up some of these old muscles that have done nothing for so very long.
If you are healthy in the way you live, eat and daily walks and exercise will NOT kill me LOL
OMG this is really a long blog, but I am just so happy in my choices today that I am glowing inside and out and really wanted to share this with my friends.