Flouting on a sea of emotions

You know you have an awesome job when after you are laid off you feel like you have died or feel like you have no clue who you are now.
I loved my job and the company not to mention the hundreds of people I worked with at my site and the other 2.
I am fine one minute then BAM! I am thinking of death and destruction. The job became such a part of my own existence that I can't seem to think past that. I remind myself (as do my friends) that I will be fine and that I have to go on, but I really don't want too!
I want my job, my desk, my life back!!! I would even go back on the phones if they would just take me back, how sad is that!!! very very VERY sad not to mention pathetic...