I am very use to having someone around even if it is only in the apartment below me my friend is there. This past week I have been taking great strides to learn I am good without her being there... I don't even go to her FB profile to see what she is doing or if it comes up in my feed, I just read and go on. It is going to take more time but, I am proud of myself and I don't have to have someone around me all the time.
Looks like I may actally be growing my own set and self love is in reach. I think it is the apartment, it is full of dark wood and a rail for plates that has my nic nacs on it with more to go up, I am working on an idea of doing Elemental altars in the correct directions and stitching, well designing first something elemental for each one. Will keep you posted on how this goes, but I am very happy in my apartment and now if I could just get a loan and clean up my credit I would be over the beautiful lady Moon!!