Saturday, January 15, 2011

Don't Read - Whiny

darkness surrounds me, I am not well tonight.  Very lonely without my friends at work.  I have friends that want to come over and I guess I am going to have to break down that wall and let people in.

want to be somewhere warm, laying in the sun reading (if you know me I do not like day light) so I guess this is bad i can feel my heart beating more than usual I need to learn to breath like in yoga but can't figure it out from the tapes

I want to clean out my room but can't seem to make myself do it how stupid is that, I really want to do it!

I have NOT followed my diet all week and am now out of cash until Friday and only have sausages left for meat lots of pasta and veggies but no chicken or lean meats and I need to have some meat with the veggies rice or pasta

I want to cry but I don't want to cry I AM A MESS!

thank you to everyone for all your wonderful comments some days they help get me through HUGS!

1 comment:

Dark Mother said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Are you comfortable and trusting in your doc? Is he/she a specialist? Family docs are clueless about mood disorders. When I found a good therapist I can't tell you what a difference it made. After seeing her for a bit, I was trusting and comfortable enough to visit the psychiatrist she has worked with for a decade and I haven't looked back. I feel like after years of a rollercoastermerrygoround of mental "health" I'm finally comfortable in my skin. I wish that for you as well.