The past 2 days I have wanted so badly to just fall off the edge of the world.
I have pissed off and upset both my best friends Faith and Eva.
I wish I was floating and feeling nothing ever again.
If I didn't have family I would allow myself to give in to the feelings of wanting to be dead.
I am too much drama for everyone including myself and I don't know what to do about it.
I feel like I am drowning in my own tears, fears and bull shit.
I am thinking maybe I should show my blog to my doctors. When I see them I am usually calm and well my blog is far from it these days. I am feeling like I should maybe be committed.
I have so much self loathing and emptiness and anger and fear and ....
WHAT SHOULD I DO?????