Wednesday, August 08, 2012

I want to be healthy again! Please!

First off the wedding was lovely, the kids had a wonderful day and both were so excited and happy it was finally here.  My Lisa took the professional shots at the wedding and can't wait to see them all!  These were randoms that were taken by my cousin Michelle.
About to be married

Mr. & Mrs. Chemerys

Married!


















Today I went to the doctor's for my medication refill and he told me my MRI came back normal, so we are waiting on the results of the last test that was done for my balance.  He also broke the news that I shouldn't get too excited about thinking I will return to work anytime or be allowed to drive ever again if they can't find a reason for this.  
Returning to work would add more stress, and stress seems to trigger a huge reaction to my balance issues, so now what to do?
I spent the day sobbing like an idiot, it use to be funny when he told me I was a puzzle to the doctors and specialists, now it is fucking annoying as hell!
I feel useless and at the moment helpless, and having zero ability to drive again just makes me want to puke my guts out over and over again.
Sorry for the pity party, but at the moment the I don't give a fuck has moved in and seems to be taking root.

2 comments:

Opinionated Redhead said...

My niece went 7 years with deteriorating conditions because she didn't seek second or third opinions. Have you done that? Also, did they test you for Lymes Disease or any of the host of autoimmune disorders?

The wedding pictures are beautiful. I saw some on Facebook too. You looked gorgeous in your dress.

Too bad we can't escape our shitty lives with a weekend of debauchery in Vegas.

Serenity Raven said...

Congratulations on getting married! You look beautiful! I'm so sorry about your health issues. Sending you lots of healing energy! I have something that might cheer you up. I wanted to let you know that I’ve nominated you for two blog awards! http://www.thedomesticpagan.net/2012/08/iblog-awards.html