Flirting

I actually asked a guy to come over and watch the race with me on Sunday and offered to cook, which I HATE to do! Of course this was online, however I have known this man since we were teens, he dated my sister and his sister was like a fixture in our house she was my sister's best friend. 

Of course I gave him an out if he needed to take it. 

It is so hard for me to even talk to men even online it is panic attack worthy! 

Dear Goddess HELP me!!

I can flirt with men while speaking to them online even ones I have known for many years, but find it so difficult to even talk to a man live and it person... SAD



I have been told that flirting is an art form and it helps breakdown the emotional barriers.

A book I NEED to read but want to find Flirting after 40 first LMAO!!

Downward Spiral

UPDATE doctor can't see me for 2 weeks! WTF????
I haven't been feeling mentally well of late, at first I thought I just missed Ryan since he has left or the fact he would always hug me when I came in the door unlike Joey who is not as affectionate.  Then a friend of mine at work kept asking me if I was mad at her or had she said or done something, and no she had not.  Then tonight she asked how I was mentally!  Like a clash of thunder and lightening it hit me, my depression is getting bad.  I am going to call the doctor tomorrow, I think my meds may not be working as well as they should or could be.  I don't know what it is, I want to sleep all the time, I am grouchy and just not happy at all.  I could be in my apartment and go no where and not have an issue with it at all.  There is no one I really want to see right now, sorry everyone, but it is just me.  I wish I wanted to be around people but the thought of it sends another spiralling jolt through my body.  Not even my friends and family and damn even the cats are annoying me.  This is just not me!  I don't want to finish the baby sweater for my friend even though I know the baby is coming tomorrow and I have a sleeve and a half left to do, I don't feel like stitching even though I have some amazing fabric, floss and Halloween charts to do.  Nothing Nada Blah is all I want right now.  So please forgive my not posting and not calling and not answering emails I am just in a downward spiral right now.